this series reads like one very long book, and this third book is the painful part. just when "their fucking" started to feel like love....
J: my God, I
A: me too
then bam, jake is obviously scared of his feelings and grabs on to kate as some kind of escape.
J:its not because of your health....its got nothing to do with the way i feel about you
this scene was so difficult to digest...so painful and shocking...it sits in your chest like a rock... a little too close to home, reminding me of an old lover i had who sat in my bed and said "im in love with another girl" and even though i knew i never had him, hed never promised anything, it still stung.
another very hard to process scene is where the relationship borders on abusive, or ends in an explosive way...
J: youre not that stupid.then again, maybe you are....i will throw your ass in jail.
A: my existence threatens you
he pushed me back, hard. i crashed into the hall table.
and then it just ends....on to book 4, after i work thru some o this shit. jeez.